rondo "i can fix him" ravus (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
flameguard) wrote2024-06-10 03:42 pm
flameguard) wrote2024-06-10 03:42 pm
Entry tags:
mygod | pc catchall | astarion
the internet is rife with astarion memes
the internet is rife with astarion memes
the internet is rife with astarion memes
wk 4, tuesday
rondo's out on the pier after all of that - he's mostly made himself scarce once the reveal was out, though he's not really hiding! he has his stupid hair down, and he's playing with something in his fingers, but he's not against any company. though, he hasn't noticed it! sneaky.
his thoughts are just kind of jumbled at the moment, too. nothing much to read, at least right away. ]
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well, he'll just slide himself up to him on the pier and squint out at the water. ]
Did you know if you go up the ferris wheel you can see something in the far distance? Makes these places feel a little less isolated, even if I'm not sure whether it annoys me or relieves me more.
[ he probably, literally, did just appear out of nowhere. ]
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...Mr. Astarion....?
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...
[ oh dear. not the tears. this is so not his wheelhouse. ]
Hello there. I would ask how you are, but I have a feeling I can guess the answer without doing that.
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...I'm okay. [ quietly. well except he's mad at laudna. fuck her. but besides that ] It's - not really how I feel that's to be worried about, at the moment... I'm just relieved it's all over.
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And quite the outcome too. You literally revived the dead.
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anyway, he... nods a little, looking back out at the water. ] ...one of them, at least.
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To be blunt with you, Rondo?
It's quite honestly a fucking miracle of circumstances that you were able to revive one.
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[ Karlach was upset. And rightfully so. ]
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[ And if you are so concerned, talking to her would likely be the best option. ]
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well he doesn't say anything to that, but astarion can probably get the sense by his expression that karlach is not the only one like that. ]
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[ flippant as it sounds on the surface, it... isn't. ]
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[ because she and rondo are kind of similar in way too many ways. ]
But... she was right, I... there were so many people we've lost. [ his thoughts repeat a few names, lingering of course on the last - Marina. ] And there's no reason why I get to decide who lives or who dies.
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[ that's a tangle of something... a little old, but a little annoyed too. not at karlach, not at rondo, but at a secret third thing, that seems to bubble up for a moment in this thoughts and then vanish. ]
So, you'd rather have just sat on indecision, announced the plan to the world and never really got around to anything because you're never going to have a solution that pleases everyone?
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[ ... ]
I don't... I don't regret it, of course I don't. I couldn't. I just... wish I could do more.
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Hells, you two are both exactly the same aren't you?
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...What...?
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It's not about what you've done and what you've managed, it's what if I could've done more, while you're lying face down in the dirt with the weight of the world on your shoulders.
[ ... it's fine. ]
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[ im in this picture and i dont like it ]
...yes....
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with Eyes that Know. ]
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[ rondo says after a very long moment, playing with the little ribbon in his hands. ]
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[ ... ]
You are allowed to be selfish, you are aware.
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I don't want to be.
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