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[flameguard]

the internet is rife with astarion memes

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[haematocritical]

... if it helps you sleep at night.

[ he runs a hand through his curls, shaking them out a little agitatedly. ] I'm not sure it does any good to say "oh, it shouldn't have been this person". You're not wrong? But frankly I don't think this place cares.

[flameguard]

I don't know if anything here would, but... it's not so much about me, I guess.

[ more about erin - though... she can't really make any of those choices or decisions, now. either way. it's how he would want to go out in that situation. of his own volition. ]

And... I agree. I'm sure it doesn't. [ care. ] These kinds of things never really do. Plus... it doesn't change anything, to be wistful, or talk over regrets, or woulds or shoulds. I could have - I should have struck Miss Erin with more force, last night, but I didn't. And now we have what we have.

[ maybe a little more realistic than you might expect, that rondo of the knights ardante. he's more subdued as a whole, here, more thoughtful. ]

I just don't want to lose sight of the light. Small as it might be.

[haematocritical]

You're aware if you had, and Vin hadn't spoken up about Nona, we'd be in a worse position, right?

[ just a... simple question. to make a simple point. ]

Oh, she probably would've spoken up about her if there were no other choice. But we were cutting it close.

[flameguard]

... I think a few people were aware of Miss Nona.

[ but, he nods... looking a little more crestfallen than before. ]

I know, Mr. Astarion. I promise, I know.

[haematocritical]

Good. We’d have been a bit fucked without an alternative option.

[ ….

he still can’t wrap his head around this kind of sorrow and self-blame. stopping these rituals seems impossible at the moment, so the heroics and determination to do something about it….

it feels off. ]

Famine mentioned we always need someone to vote for at the end. Something to consider if this trend of many bodies continues.

[flameguard]

[ SOMETIMES YOU JUST WANT TO HELP PEOPLE ASTARION JEEZ ]

...I know. [ again. he seems a little bit scolded. ]

[haematocritical]

[ that sounds exhausting.

also i had to reread that tag twice because my eyes were glued shut when i was typing it last night send help. why do we need sleep. ]

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[ ugggh. ] Stop that.