[ we gotta stop handshaking on everything my square enix protagonist brother in christ
anyway. yeah! it's a messed up test. it was messed up to him, too, but he passed it! with flying colors! and yet!! rondo sets his hand on his heart as he finishes talking and leaves it there - the space without the flame has felt so cold since his arrival here. even with the monster gone, it's not much better. ]
...I suppose when you put it like that, yes. [ but it is about strength, in a sense. it's hard not think about it that way - especially when a lack of strength was what got him in the first place. a lack of strength against sazantos lost him the flame he'd worked so hard to earn. and, of course, karlach said it. you never stood a chance against me. and he never did, did he?
he's quiet for a little while, looking down at his hands. ]
Sir Sazantos told me a long time ago to walk with the Flame and follow my heart. And I've always done everything I could to do so. It's why I was prepared to fight him - I knew I had to stop him, even if it would hurt me to have to go against someone who was so precious to me.
Right. [ luckily cloud does not know rondo is thinking about how losing to karlach makes him weak which is good because cloud would be like i literally died to camille and kate stfu. instead he is trying to understand the issue here. he is not good at emotions ever in any shape or form please ] Thought that hadn't changed just because you lost it to him once?
But... it was a marked showing of the fact that I was not strong enough to overcome a threat to the continent, which is the main duty of the Flameguard. And... now that the Flame is gone, hypothetically, anyone else could take their own trial and pass it. The Ringbearer Chosen certainly could, if they wanted to.
[
probably. the trial was in hell. perhaps this is just an insecurity issue. perhaps.... sometimes you have big issues about being strong enough. perhaps being here has not made that any better. ] I don't know if the Flame will ever return. If I am to return from this place, it's likely that the others have already defeated Sir Sazantos in my absence. So...
[ which! that hurts for a whole other reason!!! but its fine. ]
[ i cannot emphasize how little he is the person who can help with these things he listens to it quietly and mulls it over but he is not Good at cheering people up or helping them with insecurities!!! ]
...So either you try to get it back, or you move on and try to do good some other way. You were a knight before you ever had that flame.
[ he. shrugs. ]
I think you're getting hung up on the wrong things.
[ well. this is a terrible place to look for guidance but he will. try. ]
You keep talking about how the Flameguard has to be strong and deal with everything or whatever, but it's not like you were traveling alone in the first place. You said it yourself. The rest of your companions might have already defeated that guy when you come back. It's not like everything rests on you alone being strong enough.
[ cloud like. thats why we have party members nods ]
[ king richard and queen alaune, bargello, lord eltrix, king solon, and... the ringbearer chosen. dear, precious friends, though... the guardians of light were a once in a lifetime group. at home, it would be... maybe captain hugo. ]
I've been very lucky to have many dear companions, and... I draw a lot of strength from them, but...
[ bleh. he shakes his head. ] I don't know. This is all very silly.
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anyway. yeah! it's a messed up test. it was messed up to him, too, but he passed it! with flying colors! and yet!! rondo sets his hand on his heart as he finishes talking and leaves it there - the space without the flame has felt so cold since his arrival here. even with the monster gone, it's not much better. ]
...I suppose when you put it like that, yes. [ but it is about strength, in a sense. it's hard not think about it that way - especially when a lack of strength was what got him in the first place. a lack of strength against sazantos lost him the flame he'd worked so hard to earn. and, of course, karlach said it. you never stood a chance against me. and he never did, did he?
he's quiet for a little while, looking down at his hands. ]
Sir Sazantos told me a long time ago to walk with the Flame and follow my heart. And I've always done everything I could to do so. It's why I was prepared to fight him - I knew I had to stop him, even if it would hurt me to have to go against someone who was so precious to me.
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But... it was a marked showing of the fact that I was not strong enough to overcome a threat to the continent, which is the main duty of the Flameguard. And... now that the Flame is gone, hypothetically, anyone else could take their own trial and pass it. The Ringbearer Chosen certainly could, if they wanted to.
[
probably. the trial was in hell. perhaps this is just an insecurity issue. perhaps.... sometimes you have big issues about being strong enough. perhaps being here has not made that any better. ] I don't know if the Flame will ever return. If I am to return from this place, it's likely that the others have already defeated Sir Sazantos in my absence. So...
[ which! that hurts for a whole other reason!!! but its fine. ]
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...So either you try to get it back, or you move on and try to do good some other way. You were a knight before you ever had that flame.
[ he. shrugs. ]
I think you're getting hung up on the wrong things.
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he looks over at him with that, though...? looking for Guidance... cloud you're so smart and cool surely you will understand ]
... Do you think so?
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You keep talking about how the Flameguard has to be strong and deal with everything or whatever, but it's not like you were traveling alone in the first place. You said it yourself. The rest of your companions might have already defeated that guy when you come back. It's not like everything rests on you alone being strong enough.
[ cloud like. thats why we have party members nods ]
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[ king richard and queen alaune, bargello, lord eltrix, king solon, and... the ringbearer chosen. dear, precious friends, though... the guardians of light were a once in a lifetime group. at home, it would be... maybe captain hugo. ]
I've been very lucky to have many dear companions, and... I draw a lot of strength from them, but...
[ bleh. he shakes his head. ] I don't know. This is all very silly.
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