But... it was a marked showing of the fact that I was not strong enough to overcome a threat to the continent, which is the main duty of the Flameguard. And... now that the Flame is gone, hypothetically, anyone else could take their own trial and pass it. The Ringbearer Chosen certainly could, if they wanted to.
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probably. the trial was in hell. perhaps this is just an insecurity issue. perhaps.... sometimes you have big issues about being strong enough. perhaps being here has not made that any better. ] I don't know if the Flame will ever return. If I am to return from this place, it's likely that the others have already defeated Sir Sazantos in my absence. So...
[ which! that hurts for a whole other reason!!! but its fine. ]
[ i cannot emphasize how little he is the person who can help with these things he listens to it quietly and mulls it over but he is not Good at cheering people up or helping them with insecurities!!! ]
...So either you try to get it back, or you move on and try to do good some other way. You were a knight before you ever had that flame.
[ he. shrugs. ]
I think you're getting hung up on the wrong things.
[ well. this is a terrible place to look for guidance but he will. try. ]
You keep talking about how the Flameguard has to be strong and deal with everything or whatever, but it's not like you were traveling alone in the first place. You said it yourself. The rest of your companions might have already defeated that guy when you come back. It's not like everything rests on you alone being strong enough.
[ cloud like. thats why we have party members nods ]
[ king richard and queen alaune, bargello, lord eltrix, king solon, and... the ringbearer chosen. dear, precious friends, though... the guardians of light were a once in a lifetime group. at home, it would be... maybe captain hugo. ]
I've been very lucky to have many dear companions, and... I draw a lot of strength from them, but...
[ bleh. he shakes his head. ] I don't know. This is all very silly.
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But... it was a marked showing of the fact that I was not strong enough to overcome a threat to the continent, which is the main duty of the Flameguard. And... now that the Flame is gone, hypothetically, anyone else could take their own trial and pass it. The Ringbearer Chosen certainly could, if they wanted to.
[
probably. the trial was in hell. perhaps this is just an insecurity issue. perhaps.... sometimes you have big issues about being strong enough. perhaps being here has not made that any better. ] I don't know if the Flame will ever return. If I am to return from this place, it's likely that the others have already defeated Sir Sazantos in my absence. So...
[ which! that hurts for a whole other reason!!! but its fine. ]
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...So either you try to get it back, or you move on and try to do good some other way. You were a knight before you ever had that flame.
[ he. shrugs. ]
I think you're getting hung up on the wrong things.
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he looks over at him with that, though...? looking for Guidance... cloud you're so smart and cool surely you will understand ]
... Do you think so?
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You keep talking about how the Flameguard has to be strong and deal with everything or whatever, but it's not like you were traveling alone in the first place. You said it yourself. The rest of your companions might have already defeated that guy when you come back. It's not like everything rests on you alone being strong enough.
[ cloud like. thats why we have party members nods ]
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[ king richard and queen alaune, bargello, lord eltrix, king solon, and... the ringbearer chosen. dear, precious friends, though... the guardians of light were a once in a lifetime group. at home, it would be... maybe captain hugo. ]
I've been very lucky to have many dear companions, and... I draw a lot of strength from them, but...
[ bleh. he shakes his head. ] I don't know. This is all very silly.
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