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[flameguard]

the placing of these next to each other is exquisite

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[allomantic]

I wouldn't mind hearing them. The things you're feeling.

[flameguard]

...I don't regret doing it.

[ he says, after a long moment. that's for sure. ] I still...I know we couldn't talk to her, but I wish we had, I wish... I wish a lot of things. I wish I could've done more.

[ What about the others who died?

karlach's single, stray thought affected him deeply - it was more heartbreaking than anything else, than any other reaction. ]

[allomantic]

It would have hurt you more if you killed her and didn't bring her back, wouldn't it?

[regardless of any options they had.]

[flameguard]

[ immediately: ]

Of course.

[allomantic]

Then you made the right decision.

[flameguard]

...It still just sits so poorly with me, that we had to gamble with her life.

[ and it probably always will. ]

[allomantic]

What would have been the better option? Leaving her to kill someone else?

[flameguard]

I know, I know... I know we did the best with what we had. And... it worked, so... that's all that really matters.

[allomantic]

...You matter, too. And how you feel about it matters.

[You're not like me.]

[flameguard]

[ well he whips his head up at that thought - ]

What? What you feel matters, too.

[allomantic]

No, that's - not what I meant by that.

[flameguard]

[ a questioning and slightly upset look...? ]

[allomantic]

[a pause, and then:]

Assassination is on my profile for a reason. I don't think this affects me the same way it does you.

[I'm used to doing this without any way to bring them back.]

[flameguard]

...oh.

[ ... ]

M... me too. [ to her thought, at least. he thinks, predictably, about Sir Sazantos. but the thought doesn't linger. ] In... even in this case, I followed my heart. I walked the path that I had to.

[allomantic]

...You're not used to it the same way I am. It's alright to say that, you know.

[that he's hurting about it.]

[flameguard]

[ ororhghg... he reaches up and scrubs a hand over his face. ]

... I know, I know. I feel as though I'm always upset about something or other, here, lately, but... it's not a bad thing. [ he's not emotionally constipated (thank god) but also. ]

I don't think Mr. Kanda's ever going to speak to me again.

[allomantic]

There's much to be upset about.

[reaches for his hand...]

Why? What did he say to you?

[flameguard]

[ give paw. he takes it easily, with a little squeeze. ]

Nothing. [ with a little huff of a laugh. ] He said I was too stupid to understand what his problem was.

[allomantic]

[after a moment:]

It isn't your responsibility to make him better at talking about how he feels.

[flameguard]

...no, I guess not.

[ it's always like this, though, isn't it? You'll never understand, Rondo. ]

[allomantic]

You understand when it's important.

[flameguard]

[ this feels important, he doesn't say, but he nods. ]

...Thank you, Vin.

[allomantic]

Of course.

[Anything, any time you need.]

[flameguard]

Heh. [ with a little nudge. ] Hey, that's mutual, you know.

[ Anything, anytime you need. ]

[allomantic]

[wahhhh little smile emojis pop up over her head]

Ah, by the way - can I ask you something?