[ yeesh - this reaction makes him laugh, a little. it's quiet, sort of helpless, but he rubs his chest as he finishes, staring off into the distance of his own memories. something about this memory feels achingly bittersweet. the room feels cold. ]
... Yes, maybe so.
[ aelfric said you WILL suffer ] The gods are not uncaring, but... they are not kind, either.
[ It's how he starts off conversation if you kill someone and he has to come babysit your murdering ass. It is incredibly stupid and I love him so much for it. ]
At least you have one up on there. I'd consider the gods very uncaring where I'm from -- or if they do, it's definitely not how mortals see it.
Even the kindest god put humanity through a thousand years of suffering for the sake of growth, so they say.
...yes. [ suffering for the sake of growth, indeed. his hand comes to rest on his heart. ] At the time, I don't... I don't think I really understood that that was what it was about. But I needed - I always relied on others to be strong. It took until then for me to understand that I had the capability to be strong on my own.
Though, I'm - I still have a long way to go. [ as always, he downplays his own strengths - even after becoming god's babygirl, rondo's still not so sure that he's got what it takes to be the flameguard. ] But I do not have doubts that Aelfric's Flame is what I have pledged myself to, and what I will continue to uphold. No matter what.
Is it so bad to be reliant? I never really understood it all, but I guess I never really got the memo on trying to be strong for others, or things like that.
[ He always just kind of does his own thing, in his little bubble. ]
But sounds like you know what you're committed to and who you want to be.
[ it's not bad to rely on others in times when you need them. but... to rely on their praise and attention to be strong - now that's something rondo had to work on. he had to come to understand what strength meant to him. it couldn't just be attached to sazantos, and it's not. not anymore.
the last comment gets a laugh - he ducks his head, cheeks a little pink, and nods. ]
I do. I think, at least, I've always known that. Once I - once I left my House behind, there was no going back. [ no one can say he's not stubborn. nearly a decade of chasing after sazantos' back is dedication. ] Sir Sazantos told me once to follow my heart. And that's what I want to do.
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... Yes, maybe so.
[ aelfric said you WILL suffer ] The gods are not uncaring, but... they are not kind, either.
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At least you have one up on there. I'd consider the gods very uncaring where I'm from -- or if they do, it's definitely not how mortals see it.
Even the kindest god put humanity through a thousand years of suffering for the sake of growth, so they say.
[ Rondo getting boss-rushed for his growth. ]
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...yes. [ suffering for the sake of growth, indeed. his hand comes to rest on his heart. ] At the time, I don't... I don't think I really understood that that was what it was about. But I needed - I always relied on others to be strong. It took until then for me to understand that I had the capability to be strong on my own.
Though, I'm - I still have a long way to go. [ as always, he downplays his own strengths - even after becoming god's babygirl, rondo's still not so sure that he's got what it takes to be the flameguard. ] But I do not have doubts that Aelfric's Flame is what I have pledged myself to, and what I will continue to uphold. No matter what.
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[ He always just kind of does his own thing, in his little bubble. ]
But sounds like you know what you're committed to and who you want to be.
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[ it's not bad to rely on others in times when you need them. but... to rely on their praise and attention to be strong - now that's something rondo had to work on. he had to come to understand what strength meant to him. it couldn't just be attached to sazantos, and it's not. not anymore.
the last comment gets a laugh - he ducks his head, cheeks a little pink, and nods. ]
I do. I think, at least, I've always known that. Once I - once I left my House behind, there was no going back. [ no one can say he's not stubborn. nearly a decade of chasing after sazantos' back is dedication. ] Sir Sazantos told me once to follow my heart. And that's what I want to do.
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Tread that path if you'd like. Might be tough but at least you know which way you want to head in the end.