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[killies]

Why? What difference does it make? If you already know, you already know.

[flameguard]

...Well... at least for us - we haven't gotten to talk to you face to face in a long time.

[ c: ]

[killies]

It hasn't even been that long.

[flameguard]

It feels like it......

[killies]

... Yeah. It does.

[flameguard]

And we can't even really reach out for you guys, either, like this.

[ he looks at his own hands and wiggles his semi-transparent fingers. 75% opacity. ] So... maybe the words are comforting.

[killies]

It does feel a little bit good to say things without second guessing whether or not I want to say them for too long.

[ and then just not saying anything instead.

although she does look less pleased at this admission. ]

[flameguard]

And... it's nice to hear that people are happy to hear it when you say those things? Right?

[ right? right? ]

[killies]

I don't like your attitude about this.

[ she is compelled to admit. ]

[flameguard]

[ hELP HEHKRJH

he laughs - a like, startled noise, and he nods. ]

Okay, okay, sorry, sorry, I'll stop. [ happy... ]

[killies]

This kind of curse wouldn't even do anything to you, would it...?

[flameguard]

Heh, probably not! I'm pretty much an open book.

[ lawful good ass ]

I never really saw a point in hiding how I feel about things, and... even if I did, I wouldn't be very good at it. I'm a really, really bad liar.

[killies]

I think that's a better way to be. It's kind of admirable to be able to put people at ease and just be honest about things from the start.

[flameguard]

[ oh... touched? weh. ]

... Thank you. [ softly. ] I hope I've been able to put you at ease even a little.

[ ... ]

It's a double edged sword, I think. I'm not always so good at being practical. And sometimes, I make decisions that I should... probably think about first. [ PROBABLY? ] I admire how clever you are, and how levelheaded you are in all situations.

That means that we just balance each other out really well, right? Heh.

[killies]

[ DON'T BE TOUCHED SHE HATES THIS CURSE SO MUCH ]

I guess so. It would be nice if it's balanced, anyway. But I think even for the way I like to do things, it would be better if I could communicate easier. And actually cheer people up and say what I mean easier...

[flameguard]

[ touched forever

he looks thoughtful. genuinely considering a solution... ]

... Well... what about writing it down? Is that easier?

[killies]

No. Writing it down is so much worse. I didn't know how much I hate writing letters until recently. But I hate it. You have so much time to think about what you're going to write. You have to commit to it so much. It sucks, dude.

[flameguard]

[ HELP ]

I... see...

[ ..... ] Even when I'm talking out loud, I just don't really think about what I say, and that helps....?


[ this is not useful advice ]

[killies]

I can't be like that.

[ ... ]

Usually.

[flameguard]

Unless you're cursed....

[ RIP ]

Maybe... start small? Or... show it through your gestures, instead of your words.

[killies]

I'm not good at gestures either.

[flameguard]

You are, too!

[ he makes the friend sign!! with his hand! he remembers this! that is not what she meant.






this is a joke. ]

[killies]

That's not what that means, dude...

[ she's bad at receiving jokes ]

[flameguard]

...Miss Ashlyn, I was joking....

[ you're doing amazing sweetie ]

--Anyway, even just spending time with people counts as a gesture, I think. It's not about it being something big. It's about the fact that you're thinking about someone. When you picked out books with me for the library after Marina died, that was a gesture.

I think you're better at it than you think you are.

[killies]

[ oh. she shifts her weight awkwardly. she knew that!!!!!! ]

I'm... glad you think so, at least.