...I... would have helped. If I had known. [ rondo's voice cracks. ] I would have helped him. [ or he would have tried, at least. if sazantos had let him in, rondo would have given him the entire world. ]
it's the hard truth, but. it is in fact the truth. yeah. it's. it's his failing, though it's so hard even now to think about anything sazantos could possibly do as a failing. rondo rubs his eyes, sucks in a breath. don't cry.
oh, this is... a lot. the monsters - phantoms - are familiar, and he can feel it with ashlyn as her stress rises, as the responsiblity drapes onto her shoulders, and then...
...as her friends come to support her, rondo exhales. by the end of the memory, he's got a hand resting on his heart, because he is sappy, but also... ]
... Miss Ashlyn... what a wonderful group of comrades you have.
They care a lot about you. [ hehehe ] It's really clear to see. I'm glad.
[ it's so nice... ashlyn deserves all the nicest friends in the entire world, but... when the initial glow of it subsides, his usual smile does soften a little into curiosity. ] Was that recent...?
We got the jeep, like we wanted. It felt like a good thing. Even with Aiden's ankle sprained and my concussion it meant we could go out further than the graveyard, but...
[ her face sort of scrunches up. ]
Maybe we shouldn't have. Maybe they were right about just staying where we were.
You can't have known what was going to happen before it even began. [ just like with him with sazantos. can't read the future. can't tell when things are going to go wrong. with a little dread: ] I... take it it wasn't a good thing.
[ he scoots a little bit closer to ashlyn, physical support. ]
I'm sorry that you're faced with such difficult challenges, Miss Ashlyn. [ quiet and genuine as always. ] I think... no matter what choices we make, we'll always find ourselves wondering what could have happened if we went the other way.
I'm the leader. I'm the one making the calls. So if it goes badly, I have to take responsibility for it.
But you're right. In the end what's happened has happened and it won't help us to linger on it too much. We just have to keep dealing with whatever the new situation is.
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So he was a better person and then just... changed.
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[ it's complicated. he reaches up after a moment and rubs his hand over his eyes. ]
I wish I knew he was in so much pain. I... it never even occurred to me. I was foolish.
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he opens his mouth, then closes it. ]
...well...
[ i could have learned to read him better. he thinks. i could have paid more attention. ]
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...I... would have helped. If I had known. [ rondo's voice cracks. ] I would have helped him. [ or he would have tried, at least. if sazantos had let him in, rondo would have given him the entire world. ]
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That's why it's his failing.
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it's the hard truth, but. it is in fact the truth. yeah. it's. it's his failing, though it's so hard even now to think about anything sazantos could possibly do as a failing. rondo rubs his eyes, sucks in a breath. don't cry.
also give me a memshare back :catgun: ]
... I guess so.
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he gets a memory of an argument. as a side note, from now on and forever, rondo will see ashlyn's shadow as having short hair like so! neat. ]
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oh.
oh, this is... a lot. the monsters - phantoms - are familiar, and he can feel it with ashlyn as her stress rises, as the responsiblity drapes onto her shoulders, and then...
...as her friends come to support her, rondo exhales. by the end of the memory, he's got a hand resting on his heart, because he is sappy, but also... ]
... Miss Ashlyn... what a wonderful group of comrades you have.
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They're okay. [ she loves them shut up about it. ]
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They care a lot about you. [ hehehe ] It's really clear to see. I'm glad.
[ it's so nice... ashlyn deserves all the nicest friends in the entire world, but... when the initial glow of it subsides, his usual smile does soften a little into curiosity. ] Was that recent...?
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Feels like a long time ago, but technically it was... Pretty recent. A couple months ago, maybe.
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his eyes flick briefly to her braids...long... and then back up. ]
What happened after...?
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We got the jeep, like we wanted. It felt like a good thing. Even with Aiden's ankle sprained and my concussion it meant we could go out further than the graveyard, but...
[ her face sort of scrunches up. ]
Maybe we shouldn't have. Maybe they were right about just staying where we were.
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You can't have known what was going to happen before it even began. [ just like with him with sazantos. can't read the future. can't tell when things are going to go wrong. with a little dread: ] I... take it it wasn't a good thing.
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I don't know. Just sitting around and waiting it out every night doesn't seem right either, but...
Things only ever get worse.
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I'm sorry that you're faced with such difficult challenges, Miss Ashlyn. [ quiet and genuine as always. ] I think... no matter what choices we make, we'll always find ourselves wondering what could have happened if we went the other way.
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But you're right. In the end what's happened has happened and it won't help us to linger on it too much. We just have to keep dealing with whatever the new situation is.