[ the hand on his chest comes up to rest at the hollow of his blackened, softly glowing throat. ]
... I... didn't want to kill him, and he didn't want to kill me. He was - the other me was barely still human. He'd had his tongue torn out, and... I could tell he must have been tormented. He attacked me right away, but... he was still me.
I've had to do something - not against myself, but... something similar, before. It was trying to force us to be - violent, to be cruel.
[ to be tempted into feral inhumanity.
there's another pause. ]
... The other 'me' - he tore his own throat out with his bare hands. [ and at the time, rondo was... horrified, and upset, and - awed, quietly, too. proud, in the worst way, of his own strength. because he's never once, never once been tempted away from his path. not by the flame. not by hell. ]
And...when I came through the fog, the injury was present on me.
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... I... didn't want to kill him, and he didn't want to kill me. He was - the other me was barely still human. He'd had his tongue torn out, and... I could tell he must have been tormented. He attacked me right away, but... he was still me.
I've had to do something - not against myself, but... something similar, before. It was trying to force us to be - violent, to be cruel.
[ to be tempted into feral inhumanity.
there's another pause. ]
... The other 'me' - he tore his own throat out with his bare hands. [ and at the time, rondo was... horrified, and upset, and - awed, quietly, too. proud, in the worst way, of his own strength. because he's never once, never once been tempted away from his path. not by the flame. not by hell. ]
And...when I came through the fog, the injury was present on me.
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[that's an understatement, but - really, what else can she say? she's quiet for a moment. ]
I'm very glad you lived.
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the hand falls away from his throat, finally, and rondo smiles. tired, but still him, reassuring. ]
I'm made of pretty tough stuff. [ he wouldn't be much of a flameguard - much of a knight ardante, if he weren't. ] And I had to make it back here.
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Tough isn't the same thing as invincible. Please be careful.